worst day ever.

well, it was yesterday. but i didnt come on here yesterday. soo. here we go:
mkay.. my day was fine at first, like first period fine, and second fine.. well they were ohkay. but here comes third. soo.. basically cynthia brings up that moranda is going with chris to the pannel. and i was completely shocked. i was like what?? are you serious? cynthia: yeah.. i saw geo go hey moranda do you know what your wearing to the pannel?? and thee ONLY reason what pissed me off was two weeks ago chris told me at in-n-out that he was gonna invite me to the pannel but cynthia was there. he trys to deny it and say it was the podcast but it was the convention. and yeah.. that was the only thing. he straight up told me he ws inviting me.. then never did. so then i tell kalicia duque and she got effing pissed!! omfg. so then they are going at it during reading period. saying how moranda doesnt know anything about twilight why the eff is she going?!?! i was like oh i made peace with her.. whatever. idc. but then i was really thinking about it.. and it did make me mad.. and when i getmad i cry.. so i ended up having a few tears roll down my cheek. i know weak. but yeah.. i was mad. whateva. so then.. i was like wow.. i help him choose his retarded clothes and blah blah blah and he didnt even ask?? what the eff. so yeah.. then comes fourth.. and my phone was being retarded went all thee way down to the bottom of the messages[[dec 7]]. so im getting effing hell of text messages.. low and behold ones from chris, saying how he didnt wanna ask me cuz i didnt wanna feel obligated to go, and he didnt think i would want to go. and some other stuff.. well i gave him a fucken life story back. blah blah blah.
then he said that he really wanted me to go.. and NOW i feel obligated to go.. cuz if he just asked i would have said oooh hey sounds like oober fun.. lets do it.. whatever he asks.. most of the time i say yes.. idkY he thought i wouldnt go but whatever. and then i totally felt obligated. then at lunch fucekn aye dude.. can we say AWKWARD!!!! holy shit.. i have tiffany over here asking me if im going to pannel and saying i should go cuz it would be ooober fun. then i gots aire and cynthia saying lets go to the snow. and tiffany saying how much fun shes gonna have with kalicia. and really i really didnt wanna go. i honestly feel like im gonna be a third wheel or whatever. cuz like chris is kinda different when hes with moranda. idk.. he jsut is.. they are talking constantly and if i talk to him she steals his attention and i get annoyed.. she does it on purpose.. and i mean if i ever say what i feel about moranda it bugs chris. he told cynthia. he cant deny that. but whatever. THEN.. fucken i take chris home im driving stop at a stoplite all of a sudden me and alex hear this big ass effing pop i look in my rear view mirror.. BAM my fucking rear window effing shatters. alex jumped outta the car to see who did it.. didnt find anyone.. i litterally had NO EFFING BACK MIRROR!!!! omfg.. im pissed.. i cant drive my car. blah. then my dads on his period. im tlaking on twitter.. then chris is getting annoyed by me cuz im being "buddy buddy" with someone.. wtf?? really.. omg.. i was getting mad again.. like omg.. how the eff was i being buddy buddy he never really explained it.. oh and before that i tried calling him to tell him what happened three min after i dropped him off. didnt answer he never called back.. and then over twitter or whatever never called or texted to see what was up and then at the end after everyone was like wtf?? he asked.. and i told him and neer replied back. that annoyed me. like i cold have been dead and hes over here asking me if im going to pannel.. i know.. mean but whatever. so then.. hes over here telling me im being buddy buddy.. and hes not mad hes annoyed. but when me and cynthia got into huge ass fights he was still buddy biddy with her.. omg.. then i got this huge ass headache. everyone felt the need to be on twitter last night.. so iw as getting text messages non stop. then i asked chris if he really wanted to me to go.. he didnt respond till this morning.. and last night i really took that as a no.. like really i did. and i dont know if i want to go.

and i have to say this i feel bad. cuz my mom said its up to me. but idk if i wanna go.
i really dont hink i will have fun. its not that im scared to talk in frot of people its jsut whos gonna be there.. maybe he should jsut go with geo and moranda.. plus i have nothing to wear, no money. he says hell pay for me but ill feel bad.. idky i just will. thats why i dont like borrowing money.. i feel bad. so yeah.. i have work.

*sigh* that felt good.. lol
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