someone wants to die.

like no lie. they reallly do. first of alll my fucking ipod is misssing. it HAS benn IN MY PURSE in the ZIPPPER POCKET ZIPPPED the whole fucking time and now i cant find the damn thing. i have fucken destroyed my rooom i literallly flipped it upside down zigzagged and everyting else that could happen looking for this shit and i flippend my couch upside down just in case it fell in there i looked in the kitchen and the bathroom my brothers room my parents room their bathroom my car my friends house. i had cynthia check her car more than once and her things geo said shell check her things and i even CALLLED the hotel. no lie. i i did. i callled them and they sent me to lost and found and they havent found an ipod. so which leaves two things. one. i must have tooken it out somewhere where we went and i fell and i didnt notice. OR someone went through MY fucken purse and took it. now i havent really accused ANYONE of this crime but i really want tooo. i want to accuse everyone who i was with no lie. but cynthia is already off the list cuz she checked her shit for me. now. on thee other hand no one has given me a report that they looked. and poeople may think im some kind of bitch. but i dont give a fuck. someone went through my shit and took my fucken ipod that sera-rose gave me and she isnt happpy either. and. why would somone be alll jumpy and defensive if someone asked you a simple question to ask someone else they have seen it. doesnt that make you suspicious. yeah. makes me, my mom, sera, and someone else VERYYYY suspicious. now if YOU whoever you are. diud go through my purse and took it i would just like it back. i wont be pissed ill be mad that you did but ill forgive and forget. no lie i will. but sera gave me that ipod and its already gone. wtf is that. sooooo. please if you have it or seen anyone have it or take it. just let me know please. i reallly want it back.and sera isnt someone who you mess with beteeedubbbayou. uh, shes pissssed. o if you dont like drama i sugggest you give it back. thanks.
<3blair.

im getting annoyed.

well my mom is being a complete bitch. telling me i cant go to my friends house anymore.. its like what the fuck? i do way more shit than my brothers do around the house and i have and your telling me that i cant go to my friends house to go hang out?!?! your fucking on crack. my mom is contradicting herself. she was complaining how my dad was treating me like a two year old. and now look who's doing it NOW!! my fucking mother. omfg. i need to get out of this house like asap. cuz 'im gonna shoot someone. and her and my father said that once i get a job i don't have to be the slave around the house. but i still do shit. and you know what. my brothers don't even clean their rooms. my dad does. now that's fucking bullshit. they don't do anything around this fucking house or anything! its bullshit! ughh... well my brother and my dad is home so im gonna stop this. im just saying its fucking annnoying how i cant chill with my friends. ughh.. fuck her!

saturday october 24, 2009

is going to be a busy day cuz like i have to parties to go to. and theyre both my bessssest everest friends ever!!! and i dont wanna dissapoint them. so im gonna go to both. idk how im gonna do it but i am. im calling in sick on saturday so i could go to both. so i need to know when both of them start so i can plan this out. sera wants me to get fucked up at her birthday so.. ill prolly go to that one second. cuz like.. i cant drink and drive yaknow? so i just need to know what time cythias start and yeah..
and my costume wont even be done.. but im gonna work on it until friday.. lmao.
well i think thats it..
oh yeah!!!!!
i dont work on halloweenn!!!
fuck yes!
:D

what a night.

friday october sixteenth two thousand nine i seriously thought i was going to die multiple times with four other people. that must have been the most scariest, memorable, funniest, stupidest night of my life. i went to sera-rose duncans house cuz she asked me to come over, and i had to make brownies first so i did, and bounced on over there. she asked if i wanted a cigarette and i had one.. [[its totally true cynthia!lol]] so we were talking and she wanted to go to the football game and i was like ehh shurree. but i ended up convincing her other wise cuz i really didnt wanna go.. and plus i herd that biance[[rubens cousin]] and her boyfriend tyler were coming over. and last time i didnt get to hang out with them forever so i wanted to stay. so we did.. and sera wanted to paint my nails and i let her. and then she started to decorate them and we thought biance and tyler were here and they were. ruben had already bought some beer for them cuz me and sera arnt huge fans of beer. its not all that great. haha. so they have a beer and tyler and ruben start playing basketball in the back while the girls were talking about some stufff. but then they got tired and the girls got cold so we went to the garage, a few min. before we went inside, larry and denise had left and we all thought they were gonnna go have sex in the car somewhere, but we found out that davey went alonf so they went out to dinner. so then... me and sera were kinda feelin that we wanted panda express and biance wanted to by ruben cigarettes cuz she takes theirs when shes over so the girls went to go get food and cigarettes. we found out that panda express was closed so we go to mcadees. and sera as driving that was effing hilarious. and then we got to the liquor store so bianca could get some cigarettes and then we went home. so then.. after we ate our food. ruben and tyler realized that they sewat off the alchohol while playing basketball and they werent drunk and they ran outta beer. well sera wanted to drive but i was lie i could! and i have automatic windows! and tyler was like "do you have back windows that roll down?" and i was like yeah! and i gots a sunrooof! and he was all mkay! blairs drivin! so we go to thee other liquor store to get some beer and we were blastin music. sera was singing to the old asian man who didnt like her singing. and were on our way back to seras with the beer and were blasting music and we get to where musick school is and tyler has his ass outta the window. it was fucken hilarious. then ruben was standing on the seat his body out aand same with tyler and then sera got up and was hangin outta the sunroff. it was sooo effing hilarious. and i was all if theres no cops.. have fun. lmfao. and we get back and tyler was like mmmaaaannnn. yous a coold friend blair! man we gotta go somewhere else! haha.. then ruben decided that we should go to ghost town .. in fremont. where automall is.. yeah.. dont go.. ruben said a thirty minute walk.. fuckno! it was a fucken forty five to an hour walk to FINALLY GET TO THE EFFING BRIDGE. but there was like this little water area and we herd a flop and me and sera jumped. and then tyler threw a rock and that scared the holy fucken shits outta us!!! and then we got the flashlight and shined it in the water we saw eyes. A FUCKEN ALLIGATOR WAS IN THAT FUCKEN WATER LESS THAN FIFTEEN FEET AWAY FROM US!!!!!! oh and BTDUB!! we were walking on an active railroad track so trains could come and go as they please. so me and sera bolted outta there like the speed of light. and they were yelling at us to come back. and we were like fuck no! so tyler tryed to convince us and we were like fuck you. aso they ended up still going.. oooh...

soo.. let me tell you about the bridge. the brided is just the train tracks across the water and if theresa train.. you better be booken across.. the way you wanna go or the way you came unless your dead.. and oh dont forget if you go back the way you came theres an alligator.
back to the storyy.

soo... we turned around to see what they were doing and sera was like is that a train and i ws like no thats their flashlight and then she turned around again and was like no! thats a train and then we herd the three yelling train. and we fucken jumped offf that shit like the speed of light and got into the grass thats was 3/4 of out height and took two steps in the grasss so we were far away from the train and me and sera was holdgin each other with the deeath gripp. and the train was fucken LONG! so then we were shurre not to touch the metal cuz it would melt our shoes and we start walking fast back to the street. then we were freaking out cuz we didnt hear or see thee others.. but then we herd them screaming. i herd one of them say sera and i kinda herd biance but then there was one other person acting like they were in pain.. and sera broke down.she thought something bad happend to them and as crying i tryed to get her to think of happy thoughts. like weed cigarettes blair bianca sera disneyland and she said oxygen bar and we decided an oxygen bar would be awesome right then and there. and we kept walking but thenn we turned around and through some plants we saw the flashlight and knew they were goood and we relaxed. so thennn we had to peee so we sat oon the railing and tried to go pee.. the railing was soooo effing cold that i didnt have to pee and so i got back up and waited fr sera to be done adn we started walking i stippped down to my skirt that was underneath and we were wlkaing.. then a fe min later i really had to pee sat down on the railing and finally went pee and then we finally got to the street and there was sooo much fog it was redonculous!!!! but it was sooo fucken awesome nice photo area. and then we got to my car turned the seat warmers on and went to go find thee others. and they were safe and sound.. found out when the train was coming they were half way across the bridge.. omfg.. what are we gonna do.. but yeah

i know its long.. but heyy..
thats how i almost died like a kagillion times.
and you dont how many times we were tripping on rocks... and slipping on mudd and the rocks. redonculous! but all in alll i wont forget this and word of advice stay away from railroad tracks and the ghost town not worth it.. seriously.
peace dawg
<3blair!

really mom? really??

wow ohkay. well i understand that i'm eighteen and you don't have to do anything for me but WTF?? like, you won't buy me anything new. like clothes, shoes, phone, and anything else i need and now you want me to pay for my ticket to Disneyland??? with my birthday money?? like i'm gonna have the same clothes for like over a year now. and i barely have clothes to begin with. i only have like two pair of pants. and it's gonna be winter soon [[hopefully]] and i'll have no pants whats so ever. i'll be wearing skirts and shorts. woohoo. ughh.. i really hate how she keeps putting this shit on me like.. what the hell man. i have no job i've been looking and she doesn't even believe me. like i'm sorry i've been tired lately it's prolly cuz i'm getting sick and your yelling at me cuz i haven't been searching for any jobs. like are you serious. i have to cook clean and do everyones shit because i don't have a job and i'm trying to apply for jobs and being your god damn maids all at the same time. ughh. i don't understand why you can't pay for my ticket for MY birthday present because, last time i remember you didnt get me a birthday gift. my birthday was EFFING CRAP! i got YELLED at and got told to CLEAN on MY BIRTHDAY. woooooo!!! that was such an awesome time. and you guys couldn't even get the one thing i've been wanting most for years. a freaking ice cream cake. that's ALL i have been asking for my birthday and every year i see failure. i don't get anything and then when i want something or i don't wanna pay for it "your always spending money on me". which everyone and their god damn mother knows is a fucken lie now. i would like to know what was the last thing you bought me. i would really like to know. oooh. i know what you would say. two boxes of waffle crisp which is worth $4.00 and that's expensive when you buy Alex and Franky shoes and cloths for a total over $400 and that's not expensive!!!!?? are you effing kidding me. whatever. i need out. i need a job. i need SOMEONE to hire me ASAP!

peace out dawg.
<3blair.

grr,

ughh. well i'm getting a bit annoyed but not really. i dont like it when people always have to pay for me. i feel like i'm just a free loaner and that i cat do anything for myself that why i don't like asking people for money or to pay for something. its just... idk... and insecurity i guess. but not really. i mean yeah you might be saying or doing it cuz your a good friend[[s]] but i don't know. ughh. i don't know. i feel like if people always pay for me i feel i have to repay them somehow no matter what. ill feel like a jerk that uses their friends.

i guess this is a sign saying i need a job asap. well guess what blair's doing tomorrow.

you know.
well i'm gonna go watch what they're talking about. peace out dawg.
<3blair.

todayy.

well. i'm at cynthia's house right now chillen like a villain. cuz im cool like that.
but.. i'm only gonna be here till around three, three thirty cuz i'm going to my sister's house
to see what's going on with thee bearded dragons and what not cuz i'm gonna be getting one for free! im super excited it's like crazysauce! :D and yeah. but i'll be back on sunday so then we
get to chill that week so it's all gravey to the max!! hahaha. hmm. what else should i write about.
well i need a job so i can get money to buy my own laptop, and photoshop, and a new camera, and new clothes and shoes. because my mother won't buy them for me cuz i'm eightteen and she doesn't need to buy stuff for me and plus i'm not going to school. and she has bought more sutff for then she has the boys. when in reality it's probably around the same now cuz they are in baseball and they get new bats, cleats, helmets, gloves and all that shit. so now its probably ranged to about the same now. but whatever i don't wanna stress about stupid shit anymore cuz yeah. lol. so yeah.. hmm. idk what to write about cynthia said she was gonna be in there for about five minutes but i think it's been about ten. lmao. im not trippen. hahaha. i's still in my peeejays. lmao. but the shower stopped so she'll be out in about a few minutes. so i'm gonna bounce. peace out dawgs.
<3blair.

cynthia velasquez-lund

well i felt bad that she wasnt in my newest blog. so im dedicating this to her.
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well i think that pretty much sums it up. but if not.. your fault for not getting it! hahaha.. well yeah weve been bffffs forever with ups and downs and were still friends suckahs! you wish your friendship was as cool as ours!! muthafuckas!!! hahahaha.. jaykay.. but seriously you are jealous of our friendship. hahaha. cynthia velasquez-lund this is your blog. be loved!! peace out dawgs!
<3blair.

well.

well jesus. what the fuck.
hahaha.. jaykay.. i thought that would be funny.
well. i've been noticing that i haven't been hanging with certain friends.
like numero uno.
christopher mcelvogue however you spell his last name. lmao.
jesus christ. like i cant truly remember the last time i hung out with him.
idk if it was the movies or cynthia's birthday party.. like i truly cant.
now thats a fucken long time. maybe he doesn't wanna be my friend anymore. D:
lol. maybe ill play that card so he will. lmfao. another person i haven't hung out with
in awhile is tiffany spencer. oh man.. i miss that girl completely its been like a whole two months same with sarah puttman! jesus i still have their gifts! hahahahaha.. but man one of these days
im just gonna go to their houses and walk in like i own the place and chill with them..
and im talking about all three.. hahaha.. OH YEAH!! i havent hung out with chris since the movies!!!!!!! cuz i remember talking to his grandpa about my car and how all of us are going on a road trip to tahoe in december cuz i dont need chains. :d i ferrgot waht movie though. *thinks* yeah cant remember. bahahaha. wow i seriously have some effing memory problems. im gonna get altimers. ooooh jesus. im scared! hahaha. hmm. i was.... SEE here it goes again!!! i can't even think what i was gonna say next! omg! i'm most definitley scarred! hahaha. whatever.. haha.. i'll have my friends there for support hopefully. :D peace out dawgs. i''ll write some more stuff laterr.
<3blair

FUCK my FUCKING LIFE!!!!!!!

well. FML! like im not even kidding. im getting treated like an unwanted fucking kid, no.. not even a kid. a god DAMN [[thats right i said it]] GOD DAMN dog!!! probably not even that. probably like dirt. my brothers have gotten new pants, shirts, shoes, tanks, swim trunks, and shorts, and alex got a new cell phone. like really?!?! you dont think i dont need anything?!?! if i get a fucking job what the fuck am i going to wear basketball shorts?? jean shorts? a skirt?? or green or brown pants?!?!? yeah right!! if i get a job at raleys, their dress code is black pants and balck shoes, which i dont fucking have!!! yes i do understand that im eightteen but that doesnt mean you have to treat me like effing crap. and you really need to stop saying the whole "your not in school blah blah blah bullshit!!!" its soo fucking old and its been like two days!!!!! yes i do understand that im not in school but i WILL BE in effing spring!!!!! ughh. i really cant stand it anymore. and then i get elled at for being on the computer after making alexander fucking birthday cakes and fucking cookie crap for him. like really? i could have jsut sat in my room and do nothing but i got up and did that for you, and then you yell at me for being on the computer. and i AM trying to find a job its not fucking easy as you think. and i swear to god if you even say that your dad got a job. NO technically he did but papa GAVE it to him. he didnt fucken earn it. hes jsut going to the interview to be fair to all the other fucking people! ughh. really i fucken hate my life. i really need to find a fucking job and get the fuck out of my house because no one knows how to be fucking nice and all that shit. *sigh* whatever im trying not to stress out so yeah.

OHH and plus alex gets to get takin out for dinner.
me?? no one took me out for dinner, i got yelled at all day, and no one got me the one thing i wanted. i wanted an ice cream cake ive never had one and ive been wanting one forever. like since i was in the womb status.. well maybe not that long but you know what i mean. well.. im gonna go find something to eat. peace out.
<3blair

ughh!

soo.. i en this computer. is sukks major ass. i cant fix my twitter, i cant get into or facebook. its en lame! ughh. so yeah.

we just arrived in stockton today. and we just ate some yummy food. and all that junk. we went swimming and this is the second day my mom has been swimming!! :D im soooo excited! :D so me, tiffany, franky, and my mom has had ooober fun! oregon was gorgeous and awesome except the altitude!! ugh. me and tiffany have gotten scratches that we cant explain on how we got them! en crazy ass dude! hahahaha. mmm. what else. our room! omfg! our room is huge. we technically have three different rooms. a living room and two bedrooms. and we have a kitchen. with a full size fridge and a stove and a dishwasher! dude! its awesome. there has been some cute guys! likke on the way driving too oregon! :D mmmm....mmmmmm.. good! hahaha.. and swimming at the hotel in oregon. :D and here in stockton! hahahaha..

hmm.. idk what else to say. but i ahte this en computer i hope it chokes on a dick and dies!!!! its 1998! WHAT THE ! ughh.
welll ttyl. :D
<3blair.

my hair! D:

omfg. well pretty much my whole entire life is ruined. im not even kidding.. some moutha fucken asion bitch had to go on and chop my fucken hair off. yeah i know its hair.. but i dont like short hair never have never will. and i told that fucken bitch that and what does she do.. she cuts the fucken damn thinng off.. for how much fucken hair she cut off.. i could have donated to fucken cancer patiants!!! not even kidding.. i sware my hair bettr grow fast or that bitch is dead.. im ssoooooo ready to go down there and kick her ass! omfg. its prom on sat and i cant do anything to my hair besides straighten it.. i can put half up half down!!!! omfg.. im gonna cry again. well. FML!!!
to the fucken max.. I AM NEVER GETTING A HAIR CUT EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER AGAIN!!!!! IN MY WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! UGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i think i should get this out.

so yeah. well. idk how to start this but yeah. *sigh* so ive actually only told this to like one person and that was ashley davis. im glad that we are talking again. i really am. i mean yeah we fight over stupid stuff but still, we have been friends since like seventh grade and all those awesome funny goofy memories. i mean im not gonna lie, we had awesome times together. jsut because we get into fights over something stupid doesnt mean im not gonna like all of them. but yeah, i mean hey we might not be the super closest friends in the universe again, but we could be friends or great friends. yeah yeah yeah, people might be saying wth are you saying, but really, this is the type of person i am. i dont really get mad at someone forever. i always somehow talk and become friends with them again. i mean come on, how many stupid little fights did we have and we didnt talk to each other for a few days but all of a sudden we started talking again. i mean and maybe why we kept doing that is because we had awesome memories and weve known each other for a long time. i mean yeah you might read this and be like ew.. i dont like her still, im just talking to her to not make it awkward anymore, but its a whatever deal. yeah i might have said i hated you and cant stand you but it was the feeling that i was having in the spurr of the moment, i mean thats what friends go through. maybe not a huge retarded fight we had but yeah. thought everyone should know that and including you. so yeah. therrrrre yaa go.
and plus my mom was making me feel bad that weve been friends for hella years and we are throwing it away our senior year. its true. maybe it was the stree of senior year that had us going.

so yeah. people may laugh and be like oooh wow what a hoe or wow shes full of shit you stupid bitch. but im not. it is the truth. so yeah.. thats it. i gotta get up early tomorrow for frankys game.
<3blair.

baseball status

well. here it goes.
mkay, soooo pretty much i hate debbie fucken devargus and her stupid mutha fuckin kid.
omfg! like really its not even funny. i mean i havent liked her ever since i knew her and i dont even know when that was. shes annoying and i cant stand her voice!!! UGH! but you know shes like trying to intimidate me or something and i saw it today and frankys game. like she was looking at me every now and then, and then she we sometimes look at me and whisper to some chick next to her.. and then to make it even more clear, at the end of the game when we lost she cheered yelling YAY!! looking straight at me!! omfg reallly? i really want her out of the fucken league no one likes her except her relatives, and thats probably not even true. and it started because i told her effing little bitch ass of a son that if he touches my brother at all, he will die. omg. he got scared told his mom his mom had a talk with me.. and i could careless about the fucken talk she had. i dont care what she says. and i know for a FACT, a god damn FACT that if her son came home and said she found out that someone was gonna jump him, and she knew who, that she would go up to that kid and have a talk with him. no doubt about that, and she was all acting like she wouldnt do it.. ohkay.. i cant wait for that fucken day when it happens, and im gonna go up to her and be like how old are you and your tlaking to a little kid like that??? mhm. yeah bitch get wamboed!!! contradicting your dumbass! ugh. but yeah. shes not intimidating me at all. i think this is quite funny actually. i could care less taht we lost today. its a game for gods sake. ugh. but yeah.. oh and one other thing. i dont think she even liked me before the whole me vs stevie thing happened, cuz when i was like 12-14 i was handing out flyers on opening day. i gave her one. and she looked at it crumpled it up and threw it on the floor in front of me. i went up to her and said uh excuse me, next time you dont want something i give you throw it in the trash next time. thanks. and walked away. and no one thought i would do that.. and yeah.. but she got wzmboed there too. eff her. i hate her and her son. ugh. they could die and no one would care. specially me.. i would have a mutha fucken party bitches. mkay.
i think im done.
love ya.
<3blair

*sigh*

well i havent been on in frucken hell of days since this website had sooo much shit goin i was like eff this shit yo!!! haha.. but yeah.. stupid research paper and its stupid ways... ugh.. i mean i got it done.. i had it done yesterday. but it issss sosooooooooo crappy its not even funny.. i dont feel like working on it.. ill let my friends tell me that tomorrow even though mr puno said she was gonna be out for the rest of the week.. but... idk we shall see..
oooooo... antm is coming on in like twelve minutes.. ims tupor stoked.
omg.. yesterday i missed hells kitchen.
if anyone reads this and saw it.. what happened!!!
i want to know!!
i totally thought today was tuesday for some odd reason..
but yeah.. sooo...
im thinking thats it...
mmmkkkaaaaayyyyy then..
im gonna go..
aaahhh..
i was gonna say something but im not.
cuuuuuzzzzzzzzz.... i fergot.. weak!!
haha... peace dawg.
<3blair.

econ.

uggghh..
i gots a d- in that class.
thats not good.. hahahaha.
but yeah. jsut finished half thee homework sooo yeah.
blah.. thats weak.

made my day...

"she didnt seem to mention that in her stupid shit blog "calling blair out" one blair is not even close to two faced or even eclipsing the fucked up shit of person you are if you havent noticed your fucking fucked up in the brain no one says shit to your face because you'll be prank calling them nonstop nine years later with your fucking mom!" - kalicia duque

this made my day.. omg..
i love you kalicia duque!!!
<3333

ooooohhhh mmmyyy gggaaawwwdddd.

ohkay really? we have to start shit all over again. so cynthia came to sit with me ashely kalicia and chris. and she was like "omg why arnt you sitting with me" and i was like i want to sit here. jjjeeeezzz.. so she came and sat with us.. omfg. so then.. were sitting there.. and me and chris and kalicia are talking and shes just sitting there. and like kalicia wanted to knwo the password to chris's phone adn he wouldnt give it to her. and then cynthia steals his phone.. ohkay.. really?? why are you going to do that. and then she wouldnt give it back for hell of fucking days!! omfg.. i HATE it when people steal my phone and go through my fucken shit.. like if i put a passwor don it.. then its there for a REASON!!! omg. but obviously she doesnt get that.. she gets mad i put it on and when im texting she asks and i say no one.. or whatever. and shes like always looking at my phone or whatever and its annoying. ame and chris hate that shit. so then kalicia saw that chris's phone wasnt in her grasp and so she ran over there and took his phone.. and then she got hell of pissed and was like "wow.. i was listening to music. that was rude of you to steal it." looks whos talking omg. you stole his phone first..really?!?! and then she got mad or whatever. and were jsut chillen. then i wrote "blairs my bestest friend ever!!" on a post it and put it on chris and took a picture and then i wrote more and stuck it on him. and i asked if it was bothering him and if he didnt mind that i was doin it.. and then he didnt are. so i did it more. and like.. i was christopher! your my bffffffffff.. like more than kalicia! lol. and like yeah.. i put fucken ALOt of post its on him and said that he as my bffff.. and all that.. then cynthia i guess was posting crap on twitter saying STFU, your pathetic, blah blah blah. complaining basically. im like ooooohhhhhhkkkkkaaaayyyyy. wow.. really?!? why dont you jsut say it to my face then say it over the fucken computer!!!! omfg.. its sooo fucken pathetic.. thats pathetic.. omg. it pisses me off soo bad.. and uuuugggggghhhhh!!!! damn.

cynthia. sometimes.. no most of the tyime you get on mynerves like 24/7 why dont you jsut be blunt about crap instead of talking hell of shit over the computer.. kay??
thanks.
ohkay.. thats it.
had to get it out. :D
<3blair

finally.

"usually after this happens every weekend, i take my anger out on blair." -cynthia

she finally admitted it..
thank god.
<3blair

just a thought

well. when i say i wish im pretty i really wish i do. i know im not.. like really and then when mt friends say im pretty i know theyre saying that cuz they either think that or they just want me to get off the topic. but really it kinda bigs me when they do that. i mean like not really.. its like i reallly do wish i was pretty.. and im soo pretty or gorgeous how come no one else seems to think that.. yeah.. exactly. ughh..

and one more thing.. what kind of bugs me but not really cuz then i thinks it funny..
but when i start saying something and people start saying it right after me.. its like really you cant think of anything else to use huh?? examples?? here:
++ wambo
++ redonculous
++ shiiieeeettttt
++ cellular device
++ text it up
++ dont ever
++ ferrshurre
++ weak
++ adding izzal to the end of words
++ i think thats it.. idk..
++ soon to be what it do

but you see.. how manny crap i start then people use it.. that makes me a tid bit mad but laugh.
it shows me they cant think of anything themselves.. lmao..
to thee bfffffffffsss your good.. i dont mind.exceptions to you.. lol

worst day ever.

well, it was yesterday. but i didnt come on here yesterday. soo. here we go:
mkay.. my day was fine at first, like first period fine, and second fine.. well they were ohkay. but here comes third. soo.. basically cynthia brings up that moranda is going with chris to the pannel. and i was completely shocked. i was like what?? are you serious? cynthia: yeah.. i saw geo go hey moranda do you know what your wearing to the pannel?? and thee ONLY reason what pissed me off was two weeks ago chris told me at in-n-out that he was gonna invite me to the pannel but cynthia was there. he trys to deny it and say it was the podcast but it was the convention. and yeah.. that was the only thing. he straight up told me he ws inviting me.. then never did. so then i tell kalicia duque and she got effing pissed!! omfg. so then they are going at it during reading period. saying how moranda doesnt know anything about twilight why the eff is she going?!?! i was like oh i made peace with her.. whatever. idc. but then i was really thinking about it.. and it did make me mad.. and when i getmad i cry.. so i ended up having a few tears roll down my cheek. i know weak. but yeah.. i was mad. whateva. so then.. i was like wow.. i help him choose his retarded clothes and blah blah blah and he didnt even ask?? what the eff. so yeah.. then comes fourth.. and my phone was being retarded went all thee way down to the bottom of the messages[[dec 7]]. so im getting effing hell of text messages.. low and behold ones from chris, saying how he didnt wanna ask me cuz i didnt wanna feel obligated to go, and he didnt think i would want to go. and some other stuff.. well i gave him a fucken life story back. blah blah blah.
then he said that he really wanted me to go.. and NOW i feel obligated to go.. cuz if he just asked i would have said oooh hey sounds like oober fun.. lets do it.. whatever he asks.. most of the time i say yes.. idkY he thought i wouldnt go but whatever. and then i totally felt obligated. then at lunch fucekn aye dude.. can we say AWKWARD!!!! holy shit.. i have tiffany over here asking me if im going to pannel and saying i should go cuz it would be ooober fun. then i gots aire and cynthia saying lets go to the snow. and tiffany saying how much fun shes gonna have with kalicia. and really i really didnt wanna go. i honestly feel like im gonna be a third wheel or whatever. cuz like chris is kinda different when hes with moranda. idk.. he jsut is.. they are talking constantly and if i talk to him she steals his attention and i get annoyed.. she does it on purpose.. and i mean if i ever say what i feel about moranda it bugs chris. he told cynthia. he cant deny that. but whatever. THEN.. fucken i take chris home im driving stop at a stoplite all of a sudden me and alex hear this big ass effing pop i look in my rear view mirror.. BAM my fucking rear window effing shatters. alex jumped outta the car to see who did it.. didnt find anyone.. i litterally had NO EFFING BACK MIRROR!!!! omfg.. im pissed.. i cant drive my car. blah. then my dads on his period. im tlaking on twitter.. then chris is getting annoyed by me cuz im being "buddy buddy" with someone.. wtf?? really.. omg.. i was getting mad again.. like omg.. how the eff was i being buddy buddy he never really explained it.. oh and before that i tried calling him to tell him what happened three min after i dropped him off. didnt answer he never called back.. and then over twitter or whatever never called or texted to see what was up and then at the end after everyone was like wtf?? he asked.. and i told him and neer replied back. that annoyed me. like i cold have been dead and hes over here asking me if im going to pannel.. i know.. mean but whatever. so then.. hes over here telling me im being buddy buddy.. and hes not mad hes annoyed. but when me and cynthia got into huge ass fights he was still buddy biddy with her.. omg.. then i got this huge ass headache. everyone felt the need to be on twitter last night.. so iw as getting text messages non stop. then i asked chris if he really wanted to me to go.. he didnt respond till this morning.. and last night i really took that as a no.. like really i did. and i dont know if i want to go.

and i have to say this i feel bad. cuz my mom said its up to me. but idk if i wanna go.
i really dont hink i will have fun. its not that im scared to talk in frot of people its jsut whos gonna be there.. maybe he should jsut go with geo and moranda.. plus i have nothing to wear, no money. he says hell pay for me but ill feel bad.. idky i just will. thats why i dont like borrowing money.. i feel bad. so yeah.. i have work.

*sigh* that felt good.. lol
<3blair

round table

ooooh jeeezzzuss that was effng hilariious!!! frankys baseball team was working round table and i was in the kitchen or whatever cleaning dishes.. oh man.. that was fun.. i get wet. chance and dominic and francis[[not brother]] sprayed me with the power hose thing.. hahahaha.. yeah.. so i got wet.. and we made videos.. theyll be on youtube soon.
thought everyone should know that.. hahahaha.
<3blair

resolved????

so im thinking that we shouldnt have anymore drama unless someone says shit about someone else. then we would.. but yeah.. chris and cynthia got in a huge fight cuz she was not invited or whatever.. and yeah well.. its a whatever thing.. cuz i dont care.. honestly.. this shit has been going on for hell of days and im glad its over.. no drama or anything.
so from now on we are acquaintences[[spelling]] we are not friends.. im sorry but we arnt. im soo beyond done.. so yeah.. just thought i should throw that up in the air.
and yeah.. lets see...

me and chris went to go see coraline. fun shit.. the line was fucking LONG omfg!!! if you see the pikkture youll see my shows on the right side.. hahahah.. thats where we were.. and we got clothes for the SF convention.. i helped it choose his outfit.. oh man.. hes gonna look supafly.. hahaha.. yeah.. lets see.. what else??
idk..
think thats it.. :D
<3blair

here we goo again...

mhm. its true.drama all overr again over another stupid freaking
retarded ass reason too. because me and chris dont inviteher to our
outtings on friday shes getting all pissy. i mean like shurre you can get
mad or whatever but like she said on twitterits done get the fuck over it..
and wouldnt you think if its been goingon since like novemeber and we still
havent invited you that maybe we just wanna chill?? just me and him oh no..
of course not.. cuz the world evolves around you and you have to be included in
chris's life 24/7. its sooo annoying,its like not even funny.. you try WAYY to
gawd damn hard... i sware. its almost pathetic.. and if your not invited we're
not considered as good friends we're just trying to "break" her even more..
and i love it how when she posted the note or whatever that it was towards
both of us but im thee only one who said something but yet.. her and chris are still buddy buddy..
shes not mad at chris.shes only mad at me.. like i had this whole fucken plan this year
to seperate her and chris senior year... oooh yeah thats exactly what i had planned.. ever
since the seventh grade.oh shit you got me... she did it to herself.. and shes not gonna
blame herself cuz shes not wrong.. and shell blame me cuz hes close to me and not her
anymore.. oh well.. she shurre can tell people what to do.. like its done move on..
but she shurre cant take anything of her own.. MOVE ON DUDE!!!!!!!!!!!!
TAKE YOUR OWN ADVICE!!!!!!!!!! but she wont..
whatever.. im sooooo done..
if you read this good.. i could careless.
im soo done with all this pointless drama you have caused senior year..
its really pathetic. thanks for showing me who my real friends are..
i really appreciate it.. and yeah i think thats about it..

[[omg.. that felt good.. had to get it out one
way or another.. and i dont think thee other
way would have been good. XD]]
<3blair

fun day

so today..
i got to sleep in till 9:10.
then went to class for thee final..
then.. came home met danny.
hes cool.
went to work. that was lame.
oh wait i played monoply, and i gave up
to him.WEAK!!!! LMAO.
then jen did my make up.. its AWESOME!!!
danny did jens.. LMFAO.
she did his.. LMAO!!!!
and now i gots to go to bed..
oh man...
:D today was pretty awesome.
<3blair

firday night

i normally do something every friday night.
this is weak.
im not doing anything tonight!!
grr.. ughh.. its soo effing frusterating.. its not even funny.
someone really should..
well NEEDS to jsut call me adn we do something.
even though it ten thirty.. lmao.
tomorrow should be better.
yup..
<3blair

2009

well this is new.. i had one before. just ferrgot everything.
so lets go through the first few weeks of the new year
new years sucked:
had a party hung out with brothers.. LAME.
hung out with BFF's:
i chilled with ashley, chris, kalicia duque, geo,
brittany, and i think sera-rose. that was fun!!
random drama:
ugh.. annoying i know. you know this drama
cant really be pinpointed on why it keeps going on.
cuz one group is gonna say the other started it, and the other
way around.. retarded and pointless. like i said earlier
on ym notemine account.. [[proof.. go look]]
random drama stopped when school started:
idk what happened. but it did.. i was totally ready
for this you know bad looks, "mugging" ignoring hilarious day.
but never happened. so, i guess she put it behind and was
like whatever. but who knows.. it could jsut be an act but
idk.. idc if it is or not..
like someone:
yaeh i doo.. im actually saying it outloud.
i really dont ever tell anyone who i like unless they
can effing tell cuz they are freaking that good.
unless your my BFFFFF and i just tell you everything.
LOL.. but yeah.
thats my 2009 year so far.
i think...
there might be more but whatever.
thats to start you off.. lol..
<3blair.