really mom? really??

wow ohkay. well i understand that i'm eighteen and you don't have to do anything for me but WTF?? like, you won't buy me anything new. like clothes, shoes, phone, and anything else i need and now you want me to pay for my ticket to Disneyland??? with my birthday money?? like i'm gonna have the same clothes for like over a year now. and i barely have clothes to begin with. i only have like two pair of pants. and it's gonna be winter soon [[hopefully]] and i'll have no pants whats so ever. i'll be wearing skirts and shorts. woohoo. ughh.. i really hate how she keeps putting this shit on me like.. what the hell man. i have no job i've been looking and she doesn't even believe me. like i'm sorry i've been tired lately it's prolly cuz i'm getting sick and your yelling at me cuz i haven't been searching for any jobs. like are you serious. i have to cook clean and do everyones shit because i don't have a job and i'm trying to apply for jobs and being your god damn maids all at the same time. ughh. i don't understand why you can't pay for my ticket for MY birthday present because, last time i remember you didnt get me a birthday gift. my birthday was EFFING CRAP! i got YELLED at and got told to CLEAN on MY BIRTHDAY. woooooo!!! that was such an awesome time. and you guys couldn't even get the one thing i've been wanting most for years. a freaking ice cream cake. that's ALL i have been asking for my birthday and every year i see failure. i don't get anything and then when i want something or i don't wanna pay for it "your always spending money on me". which everyone and their god damn mother knows is a fucken lie now. i would like to know what was the last thing you bought me. i would really like to know. oooh. i know what you would say. two boxes of waffle crisp which is worth $4.00 and that's expensive when you buy Alex and Franky shoes and cloths for a total over $400 and that's not expensive!!!!?? are you effing kidding me. whatever. i need out. i need a job. i need SOMEONE to hire me ASAP!

peace out dawg.
<3blair.

grr,

ughh. well i'm getting a bit annoyed but not really. i dont like it when people always have to pay for me. i feel like i'm just a free loaner and that i cat do anything for myself that why i don't like asking people for money or to pay for something. its just... idk... and insecurity i guess. but not really. i mean yeah you might be saying or doing it cuz your a good friend[[s]] but i don't know. ughh. i don't know. i feel like if people always pay for me i feel i have to repay them somehow no matter what. ill feel like a jerk that uses their friends.

i guess this is a sign saying i need a job asap. well guess what blair's doing tomorrow.

you know.
well i'm gonna go watch what they're talking about. peace out dawg.
<3blair.

todayy.

well. i'm at cynthia's house right now chillen like a villain. cuz im cool like that.
but.. i'm only gonna be here till around three, three thirty cuz i'm going to my sister's house
to see what's going on with thee bearded dragons and what not cuz i'm gonna be getting one for free! im super excited it's like crazysauce! :D and yeah. but i'll be back on sunday so then we
get to chill that week so it's all gravey to the max!! hahaha. hmm. what else should i write about.
well i need a job so i can get money to buy my own laptop, and photoshop, and a new camera, and new clothes and shoes. because my mother won't buy them for me cuz i'm eightteen and she doesn't need to buy stuff for me and plus i'm not going to school. and she has bought more sutff for then she has the boys. when in reality it's probably around the same now cuz they are in baseball and they get new bats, cleats, helmets, gloves and all that shit. so now its probably ranged to about the same now. but whatever i don't wanna stress about stupid shit anymore cuz yeah. lol. so yeah.. hmm. idk what to write about cynthia said she was gonna be in there for about five minutes but i think it's been about ten. lmao. im not trippen. hahaha. i's still in my peeejays. lmao. but the shower stopped so she'll be out in about a few minutes. so i'm gonna bounce. peace out dawgs.
<3blair.

cynthia velasquez-lund

well i felt bad that she wasnt in my newest blog. so im dedicating this to her.
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well i think that pretty much sums it up. but if not.. your fault for not getting it! hahaha.. well yeah weve been bffffs forever with ups and downs and were still friends suckahs! you wish your friendship was as cool as ours!! muthafuckas!!! hahahaha.. jaykay.. but seriously you are jealous of our friendship. hahaha. cynthia velasquez-lund this is your blog. be loved!! peace out dawgs!
<3blair.

well.

well jesus. what the fuck.
hahaha.. jaykay.. i thought that would be funny.
well. i've been noticing that i haven't been hanging with certain friends.
like numero uno.
christopher mcelvogue however you spell his last name. lmao.
jesus christ. like i cant truly remember the last time i hung out with him.
idk if it was the movies or cynthia's birthday party.. like i truly cant.
now thats a fucken long time. maybe he doesn't wanna be my friend anymore. D:
lol. maybe ill play that card so he will. lmfao. another person i haven't hung out with
in awhile is tiffany spencer. oh man.. i miss that girl completely its been like a whole two months same with sarah puttman! jesus i still have their gifts! hahahahaha.. but man one of these days
im just gonna go to their houses and walk in like i own the place and chill with them..
and im talking about all three.. hahaha.. OH YEAH!! i havent hung out with chris since the movies!!!!!!! cuz i remember talking to his grandpa about my car and how all of us are going on a road trip to tahoe in december cuz i dont need chains. :d i ferrgot waht movie though. *thinks* yeah cant remember. bahahaha. wow i seriously have some effing memory problems. im gonna get altimers. ooooh jesus. im scared! hahaha. hmm. i was.... SEE here it goes again!!! i can't even think what i was gonna say next! omg! i'm most definitley scarred! hahaha. whatever.. haha.. i'll have my friends there for support hopefully. :D peace out dawgs. i''ll write some more stuff laterr.
<3blair

FUCK my FUCKING LIFE!!!!!!!

well. FML! like im not even kidding. im getting treated like an unwanted fucking kid, no.. not even a kid. a god DAMN [[thats right i said it]] GOD DAMN dog!!! probably not even that. probably like dirt. my brothers have gotten new pants, shirts, shoes, tanks, swim trunks, and shorts, and alex got a new cell phone. like really?!?! you dont think i dont need anything?!?! if i get a fucking job what the fuck am i going to wear basketball shorts?? jean shorts? a skirt?? or green or brown pants?!?!? yeah right!! if i get a job at raleys, their dress code is black pants and balck shoes, which i dont fucking have!!! yes i do understand that im eightteen but that doesnt mean you have to treat me like effing crap. and you really need to stop saying the whole "your not in school blah blah blah bullshit!!!" its soo fucking old and its been like two days!!!!! yes i do understand that im not in school but i WILL BE in effing spring!!!!! ughh. i really cant stand it anymore. and then i get elled at for being on the computer after making alexander fucking birthday cakes and fucking cookie crap for him. like really? i could have jsut sat in my room and do nothing but i got up and did that for you, and then you yell at me for being on the computer. and i AM trying to find a job its not fucking easy as you think. and i swear to god if you even say that your dad got a job. NO technically he did but papa GAVE it to him. he didnt fucken earn it. hes jsut going to the interview to be fair to all the other fucking people! ughh. really i fucken hate my life. i really need to find a fucking job and get the fuck out of my house because no one knows how to be fucking nice and all that shit. *sigh* whatever im trying not to stress out so yeah.

OHH and plus alex gets to get takin out for dinner.
me?? no one took me out for dinner, i got yelled at all day, and no one got me the one thing i wanted. i wanted an ice cream cake ive never had one and ive been wanting one forever. like since i was in the womb status.. well maybe not that long but you know what i mean. well.. im gonna go find something to eat. peace out.
<3blair