done.

well.. i dont know what to do or say. i feel like stuff is being said about me but i dont know. so im not shurre if i should be mad or shocked. i mean there were multiple times where the person was plural and some everyones thrown in there but ehh.. im not here to start anything. this is just clearing things up and saying how i feel. take it how you want.

well here we go.. i'm done with this. this is the most stupidest thing to be fighting about. like seriously if you got mad at me because i didn't invite you over... i'm sorry.. text me. phone works both ways.

i hang out with you like every two- three weeks. so.. if you wanna talk about not being invited its me. i know you invited me to ifly. i couldn't go the next day. my dad said no and my sister just got there and i had to do his stupid errands. so that wasn't my fault.

also.. this whole thing with nick. i'm glad that your moving with him go for it i don't care. i have no problems with nick. hes a cool dude. but what annoys me is when i'm hanging out with you guys and talking and bam all of a sudden your making out in front of me in the middle of me talking pisses me off. and i know for a fact if i say something while you guys are tongue locking you'll get mad. annd. remember on christmas day or whatever i came over so you could give me my gift and nick was over. and we had to take him home cuz he had to. and i walked to the car and said shotgun. you have the saddest face in the whole entire world and said " but hes leaving" with a little bit of attitude. first off that was a joke and you were already hanging out with him before i got there. that was uncalled for. another thing when you put all your sex stories is another thing. really? thats rude. i mean i dont have a say in what you do or whatever but i dont wanna know about every little thing that goes on. and i get your tweets to my phone. and when you tell other people that if you dont wanna hear about it dont read it... its kind of hard when i get it directly to my phone. im just saying. im not here to start a fight or anything but forreals.

and on notemine. how you told chris to never talk about you or nick like that again. look whos talking. look how you were talking about chris. im just saying if you dont want him to talk about you like that then dont do it to him. that was just rude.

and you had no right to bring sera into this. and she is a real friend actually. just because she doesnt want him like that doesnt mean they cant be friends. look at you and chris.. well not now but before. after he denied you.. you guys were still friends. soo i dont see why shes not.

and again. im not here to start anything. i need just needed to let this out. and if this is gonna ruin our friendship cuz im just clearing things and telling you how i feel. then so be it.

and if what you were saying to chris had not one thing to do with me then make it clear. when you say everyone in this shithole town.. thats including me... i live here. and when you say you guys... that shurre sounds like im in that because im almost always with him.
just sayin.

<3always
blair.

annoyed.

ohkay if i told you what really fucking annoyed me would you do it that same day i told you if you didnt like how i was treating you?? no?? ohkay same here... like i dont understand. after i told him what he did that annoys me the most. came to my house and went straight to the backyard when i was done talking to my mom. she was going outside to have a cigarette not to smoke weed. so.. theres a difference. and plus we were going to your house like after she was done obviously you dont care if your family knows... im inside right now cuz i cant stand being outside. you break my pipe and in return you tell me to keep your old one and buy yourself a new one?? ohkay.. i honestly dont like your pipe.. like if i was at a store that is not one i would choose. and then you mumble under your breath about something.. ohkay and not tell me.. ohkay.. im done with smoking thats why i came inside i need music.. i wanna go somewhere.. anywhere but here.. i really dont wanna go to the eclipse showing tomorrow.. i mean within the last twenty four hours ive been treated like a horrible friend... been flaked on after he made plans... and then i call you out on it and you try and turn it on me how it was my fault... how the fuck does that happen. cuz i couldnt tell you if i was gonna be awake at twelve cuz you wanted to go watch a movie with her after you said you wanted to hang out with me after i got off work... mkay that makes a whole bunch of sense... totallly... i mean yeah this could be nothing but apparently anything i get mad at is nothing... so whatever not trippen... dont like it dont be my friend im letting you know whats bothering me and you just keep doing it... ughh... sooo idk where to go with this anymore.... im annoyed i wanna go for a walk or something but its twelve forty five.. hahaha... that would be funnny.... lol.. whatever ill just jump that bridge and g3et over it... five seconds and im over it.....

five.

four.

three.

two.

one.

over it. not completely but i am.

loveblair.

confuzzled.

truly i am. i remember posting other stuff.... after november..
i really doo..
unless im blind and dont see my other posts...
i guess thats what i get for not coming on here in like forever!!!
hahahaha..but yeah.
last night was effing great..
sera, ruben, and chris came over.
i told sera and ruben to stay tha night but franky probably
would have told so they didnt but were gonna go tanning today!!
im sooo excited even though i tanned at the oakland colliseum..
but hey you can never get enough tanning..
but yeah... goood times..
im gonna bounce..
love ya!
<3blair.

someone wants to die.

like no lie. they reallly do. first of alll my fucking ipod is misssing. it HAS benn IN MY PURSE in the ZIPPPER POCKET ZIPPPED the whole fucking time and now i cant find the damn thing. i have fucken destroyed my rooom i literallly flipped it upside down zigzagged and everyting else that could happen looking for this shit and i flippend my couch upside down just in case it fell in there i looked in the kitchen and the bathroom my brothers room my parents room their bathroom my car my friends house. i had cynthia check her car more than once and her things geo said shell check her things and i even CALLLED the hotel. no lie. i i did. i callled them and they sent me to lost and found and they havent found an ipod. so which leaves two things. one. i must have tooken it out somewhere where we went and i fell and i didnt notice. OR someone went through MY fucken purse and took it. now i havent really accused ANYONE of this crime but i really want tooo. i want to accuse everyone who i was with no lie. but cynthia is already off the list cuz she checked her shit for me. now. on thee other hand no one has given me a report that they looked. and poeople may think im some kind of bitch. but i dont give a fuck. someone went through my shit and took my fucken ipod that sera-rose gave me and she isnt happpy either. and. why would somone be alll jumpy and defensive if someone asked you a simple question to ask someone else they have seen it. doesnt that make you suspicious. yeah. makes me, my mom, sera, and someone else VERYYYY suspicious. now if YOU whoever you are. diud go through my purse and took it i would just like it back. i wont be pissed ill be mad that you did but ill forgive and forget. no lie i will. but sera gave me that ipod and its already gone. wtf is that. sooooo. please if you have it or seen anyone have it or take it. just let me know please. i reallly want it back.and sera isnt someone who you mess with beteeedubbbayou. uh, shes pissssed. o if you dont like drama i sugggest you give it back. thanks.
<3blair.

im getting annoyed.

well my mom is being a complete bitch. telling me i cant go to my friends house anymore.. its like what the fuck? i do way more shit than my brothers do around the house and i have and your telling me that i cant go to my friends house to go hang out?!?! your fucking on crack. my mom is contradicting herself. she was complaining how my dad was treating me like a two year old. and now look who's doing it NOW!! my fucking mother. omfg. i need to get out of this house like asap. cuz 'im gonna shoot someone. and her and my father said that once i get a job i don't have to be the slave around the house. but i still do shit. and you know what. my brothers don't even clean their rooms. my dad does. now that's fucking bullshit. they don't do anything around this fucking house or anything! its bullshit! ughh... well my brother and my dad is home so im gonna stop this. im just saying its fucking annnoying how i cant chill with my friends. ughh.. fuck her!

saturday october 24, 2009

is going to be a busy day cuz like i have to parties to go to. and theyre both my bessssest everest friends ever!!! and i dont wanna dissapoint them. so im gonna go to both. idk how im gonna do it but i am. im calling in sick on saturday so i could go to both. so i need to know when both of them start so i can plan this out. sera wants me to get fucked up at her birthday so.. ill prolly go to that one second. cuz like.. i cant drink and drive yaknow? so i just need to know what time cythias start and yeah..
and my costume wont even be done.. but im gonna work on it until friday.. lmao.
well i think thats it..
oh yeah!!!!!
i dont work on halloweenn!!!
fuck yes!
:D

what a night.

friday october sixteenth two thousand nine i seriously thought i was going to die multiple times with four other people. that must have been the most scariest, memorable, funniest, stupidest night of my life. i went to sera-rose duncans house cuz she asked me to come over, and i had to make brownies first so i did, and bounced on over there. she asked if i wanted a cigarette and i had one.. [[its totally true cynthia!lol]] so we were talking and she wanted to go to the football game and i was like ehh shurree. but i ended up convincing her other wise cuz i really didnt wanna go.. and plus i herd that biance[[rubens cousin]] and her boyfriend tyler were coming over. and last time i didnt get to hang out with them forever so i wanted to stay. so we did.. and sera wanted to paint my nails and i let her. and then she started to decorate them and we thought biance and tyler were here and they were. ruben had already bought some beer for them cuz me and sera arnt huge fans of beer. its not all that great. haha. so they have a beer and tyler and ruben start playing basketball in the back while the girls were talking about some stufff. but then they got tired and the girls got cold so we went to the garage, a few min. before we went inside, larry and denise had left and we all thought they were gonnna go have sex in the car somewhere, but we found out that davey went alonf so they went out to dinner. so then... me and sera were kinda feelin that we wanted panda express and biance wanted to by ruben cigarettes cuz she takes theirs when shes over so the girls went to go get food and cigarettes. we found out that panda express was closed so we go to mcadees. and sera as driving that was effing hilarious. and then we got to the liquor store so bianca could get some cigarettes and then we went home. so then.. after we ate our food. ruben and tyler realized that they sewat off the alchohol while playing basketball and they werent drunk and they ran outta beer. well sera wanted to drive but i was lie i could! and i have automatic windows! and tyler was like "do you have back windows that roll down?" and i was like yeah! and i gots a sunrooof! and he was all mkay! blairs drivin! so we go to thee other liquor store to get some beer and we were blastin music. sera was singing to the old asian man who didnt like her singing. and were on our way back to seras with the beer and were blasting music and we get to where musick school is and tyler has his ass outta the window. it was fucken hilarious. then ruben was standing on the seat his body out aand same with tyler and then sera got up and was hangin outta the sunroff. it was sooo effing hilarious. and i was all if theres no cops.. have fun. lmfao. and we get back and tyler was like mmmaaaannnn. yous a coold friend blair! man we gotta go somewhere else! haha.. then ruben decided that we should go to ghost town .. in fremont. where automall is.. yeah.. dont go.. ruben said a thirty minute walk.. fuckno! it was a fucken forty five to an hour walk to FINALLY GET TO THE EFFING BRIDGE. but there was like this little water area and we herd a flop and me and sera jumped. and then tyler threw a rock and that scared the holy fucken shits outta us!!! and then we got the flashlight and shined it in the water we saw eyes. A FUCKEN ALLIGATOR WAS IN THAT FUCKEN WATER LESS THAN FIFTEEN FEET AWAY FROM US!!!!!! oh and BTDUB!! we were walking on an active railroad track so trains could come and go as they please. so me and sera bolted outta there like the speed of light. and they were yelling at us to come back. and we were like fuck no! so tyler tryed to convince us and we were like fuck you. aso they ended up still going.. oooh...

soo.. let me tell you about the bridge. the brided is just the train tracks across the water and if theresa train.. you better be booken across.. the way you wanna go or the way you came unless your dead.. and oh dont forget if you go back the way you came theres an alligator.
back to the storyy.

soo... we turned around to see what they were doing and sera was like is that a train and i ws like no thats their flashlight and then she turned around again and was like no! thats a train and then we herd the three yelling train. and we fucken jumped offf that shit like the speed of light and got into the grass thats was 3/4 of out height and took two steps in the grasss so we were far away from the train and me and sera was holdgin each other with the deeath gripp. and the train was fucken LONG! so then we were shurre not to touch the metal cuz it would melt our shoes and we start walking fast back to the street. then we were freaking out cuz we didnt hear or see thee others.. but then we herd them screaming. i herd one of them say sera and i kinda herd biance but then there was one other person acting like they were in pain.. and sera broke down.she thought something bad happend to them and as crying i tryed to get her to think of happy thoughts. like weed cigarettes blair bianca sera disneyland and she said oxygen bar and we decided an oxygen bar would be awesome right then and there. and we kept walking but thenn we turned around and through some plants we saw the flashlight and knew they were goood and we relaxed. so thennn we had to peee so we sat oon the railing and tried to go pee.. the railing was soooo effing cold that i didnt have to pee and so i got back up and waited fr sera to be done adn we started walking i stippped down to my skirt that was underneath and we were wlkaing.. then a fe min later i really had to pee sat down on the railing and finally went pee and then we finally got to the street and there was sooo much fog it was redonculous!!!! but it was sooo fucken awesome nice photo area. and then we got to my car turned the seat warmers on and went to go find thee others. and they were safe and sound.. found out when the train was coming they were half way across the bridge.. omfg.. what are we gonna do.. but yeah

i know its long.. but heyy..
thats how i almost died like a kagillion times.
and you dont how many times we were tripping on rocks... and slipping on mudd and the rocks. redonculous! but all in alll i wont forget this and word of advice stay away from railroad tracks and the ghost town not worth it.. seriously.
peace dawg
<3blair!