confuzzled.

truly i am. i remember posting other stuff.... after november..
i really doo..
unless im blind and dont see my other posts...
i guess thats what i get for not coming on here in like forever!!!
hahahaha..but yeah.
last night was effing great..
sera, ruben, and chris came over.
i told sera and ruben to stay tha night but franky probably
would have told so they didnt but were gonna go tanning today!!
im sooo excited even though i tanned at the oakland colliseum..
but hey you can never get enough tanning..
but yeah... goood times..
im gonna bounce..
love ya!
<3blair.

someone wants to die.

like no lie. they reallly do. first of alll my fucking ipod is misssing. it HAS benn IN MY PURSE in the ZIPPPER POCKET ZIPPPED the whole fucking time and now i cant find the damn thing. i have fucken destroyed my rooom i literallly flipped it upside down zigzagged and everyting else that could happen looking for this shit and i flippend my couch upside down just in case it fell in there i looked in the kitchen and the bathroom my brothers room my parents room their bathroom my car my friends house. i had cynthia check her car more than once and her things geo said shell check her things and i even CALLLED the hotel. no lie. i i did. i callled them and they sent me to lost and found and they havent found an ipod. so which leaves two things. one. i must have tooken it out somewhere where we went and i fell and i didnt notice. OR someone went through MY fucken purse and took it. now i havent really accused ANYONE of this crime but i really want tooo. i want to accuse everyone who i was with no lie. but cynthia is already off the list cuz she checked her shit for me. now. on thee other hand no one has given me a report that they looked. and poeople may think im some kind of bitch. but i dont give a fuck. someone went through my shit and took my fucken ipod that sera-rose gave me and she isnt happpy either. and. why would somone be alll jumpy and defensive if someone asked you a simple question to ask someone else they have seen it. doesnt that make you suspicious. yeah. makes me, my mom, sera, and someone else VERYYYY suspicious. now if YOU whoever you are. diud go through my purse and took it i would just like it back. i wont be pissed ill be mad that you did but ill forgive and forget. no lie i will. but sera gave me that ipod and its already gone. wtf is that. sooooo. please if you have it or seen anyone have it or take it. just let me know please. i reallly want it back.and sera isnt someone who you mess with beteeedubbbayou. uh, shes pissssed. o if you dont like drama i sugggest you give it back. thanks.
<3blair.

im getting annoyed.

well my mom is being a complete bitch. telling me i cant go to my friends house anymore.. its like what the fuck? i do way more shit than my brothers do around the house and i have and your telling me that i cant go to my friends house to go hang out?!?! your fucking on crack. my mom is contradicting herself. she was complaining how my dad was treating me like a two year old. and now look who's doing it NOW!! my fucking mother. omfg. i need to get out of this house like asap. cuz 'im gonna shoot someone. and her and my father said that once i get a job i don't have to be the slave around the house. but i still do shit. and you know what. my brothers don't even clean their rooms. my dad does. now that's fucking bullshit. they don't do anything around this fucking house or anything! its bullshit! ughh... well my brother and my dad is home so im gonna stop this. im just saying its fucking annnoying how i cant chill with my friends. ughh.. fuck her!

saturday october 24, 2009

is going to be a busy day cuz like i have to parties to go to. and theyre both my bessssest everest friends ever!!! and i dont wanna dissapoint them. so im gonna go to both. idk how im gonna do it but i am. im calling in sick on saturday so i could go to both. so i need to know when both of them start so i can plan this out. sera wants me to get fucked up at her birthday so.. ill prolly go to that one second. cuz like.. i cant drink and drive yaknow? so i just need to know what time cythias start and yeah..
and my costume wont even be done.. but im gonna work on it until friday.. lmao.
well i think thats it..
oh yeah!!!!!
i dont work on halloweenn!!!
fuck yes!
:D

what a night.

friday october sixteenth two thousand nine i seriously thought i was going to die multiple times with four other people. that must have been the most scariest, memorable, funniest, stupidest night of my life. i went to sera-rose duncans house cuz she asked me to come over, and i had to make brownies first so i did, and bounced on over there. she asked if i wanted a cigarette and i had one.. [[its totally true cynthia!lol]] so we were talking and she wanted to go to the football game and i was like ehh shurree. but i ended up convincing her other wise cuz i really didnt wanna go.. and plus i herd that biance[[rubens cousin]] and her boyfriend tyler were coming over. and last time i didnt get to hang out with them forever so i wanted to stay. so we did.. and sera wanted to paint my nails and i let her. and then she started to decorate them and we thought biance and tyler were here and they were. ruben had already bought some beer for them cuz me and sera arnt huge fans of beer. its not all that great. haha. so they have a beer and tyler and ruben start playing basketball in the back while the girls were talking about some stufff. but then they got tired and the girls got cold so we went to the garage, a few min. before we went inside, larry and denise had left and we all thought they were gonnna go have sex in the car somewhere, but we found out that davey went alonf so they went out to dinner. so then... me and sera were kinda feelin that we wanted panda express and biance wanted to by ruben cigarettes cuz she takes theirs when shes over so the girls went to go get food and cigarettes. we found out that panda express was closed so we go to mcadees. and sera as driving that was effing hilarious. and then we got to the liquor store so bianca could get some cigarettes and then we went home. so then.. after we ate our food. ruben and tyler realized that they sewat off the alchohol while playing basketball and they werent drunk and they ran outta beer. well sera wanted to drive but i was lie i could! and i have automatic windows! and tyler was like "do you have back windows that roll down?" and i was like yeah! and i gots a sunrooof! and he was all mkay! blairs drivin! so we go to thee other liquor store to get some beer and we were blastin music. sera was singing to the old asian man who didnt like her singing. and were on our way back to seras with the beer and were blasting music and we get to where musick school is and tyler has his ass outta the window. it was fucken hilarious. then ruben was standing on the seat his body out aand same with tyler and then sera got up and was hangin outta the sunroff. it was sooo effing hilarious. and i was all if theres no cops.. have fun. lmfao. and we get back and tyler was like mmmaaaannnn. yous a coold friend blair! man we gotta go somewhere else! haha.. then ruben decided that we should go to ghost town .. in fremont. where automall is.. yeah.. dont go.. ruben said a thirty minute walk.. fuckno! it was a fucken forty five to an hour walk to FINALLY GET TO THE EFFING BRIDGE. but there was like this little water area and we herd a flop and me and sera jumped. and then tyler threw a rock and that scared the holy fucken shits outta us!!! and then we got the flashlight and shined it in the water we saw eyes. A FUCKEN ALLIGATOR WAS IN THAT FUCKEN WATER LESS THAN FIFTEEN FEET AWAY FROM US!!!!!! oh and BTDUB!! we were walking on an active railroad track so trains could come and go as they please. so me and sera bolted outta there like the speed of light. and they were yelling at us to come back. and we were like fuck no! so tyler tryed to convince us and we were like fuck you. aso they ended up still going.. oooh...

soo.. let me tell you about the bridge. the brided is just the train tracks across the water and if theresa train.. you better be booken across.. the way you wanna go or the way you came unless your dead.. and oh dont forget if you go back the way you came theres an alligator.
back to the storyy.

soo... we turned around to see what they were doing and sera was like is that a train and i ws like no thats their flashlight and then she turned around again and was like no! thats a train and then we herd the three yelling train. and we fucken jumped offf that shit like the speed of light and got into the grass thats was 3/4 of out height and took two steps in the grasss so we were far away from the train and me and sera was holdgin each other with the deeath gripp. and the train was fucken LONG! so then we were shurre not to touch the metal cuz it would melt our shoes and we start walking fast back to the street. then we were freaking out cuz we didnt hear or see thee others.. but then we herd them screaming. i herd one of them say sera and i kinda herd biance but then there was one other person acting like they were in pain.. and sera broke down.she thought something bad happend to them and as crying i tryed to get her to think of happy thoughts. like weed cigarettes blair bianca sera disneyland and she said oxygen bar and we decided an oxygen bar would be awesome right then and there. and we kept walking but thenn we turned around and through some plants we saw the flashlight and knew they were goood and we relaxed. so thennn we had to peee so we sat oon the railing and tried to go pee.. the railing was soooo effing cold that i didnt have to pee and so i got back up and waited fr sera to be done adn we started walking i stippped down to my skirt that was underneath and we were wlkaing.. then a fe min later i really had to pee sat down on the railing and finally went pee and then we finally got to the street and there was sooo much fog it was redonculous!!!! but it was sooo fucken awesome nice photo area. and then we got to my car turned the seat warmers on and went to go find thee others. and they were safe and sound.. found out when the train was coming they were half way across the bridge.. omfg.. what are we gonna do.. but yeah

i know its long.. but heyy..
thats how i almost died like a kagillion times.
and you dont how many times we were tripping on rocks... and slipping on mudd and the rocks. redonculous! but all in alll i wont forget this and word of advice stay away from railroad tracks and the ghost town not worth it.. seriously.
peace dawg
<3blair!

really mom? really??

wow ohkay. well i understand that i'm eighteen and you don't have to do anything for me but WTF?? like, you won't buy me anything new. like clothes, shoes, phone, and anything else i need and now you want me to pay for my ticket to Disneyland??? with my birthday money?? like i'm gonna have the same clothes for like over a year now. and i barely have clothes to begin with. i only have like two pair of pants. and it's gonna be winter soon [[hopefully]] and i'll have no pants whats so ever. i'll be wearing skirts and shorts. woohoo. ughh.. i really hate how she keeps putting this shit on me like.. what the hell man. i have no job i've been looking and she doesn't even believe me. like i'm sorry i've been tired lately it's prolly cuz i'm getting sick and your yelling at me cuz i haven't been searching for any jobs. like are you serious. i have to cook clean and do everyones shit because i don't have a job and i'm trying to apply for jobs and being your god damn maids all at the same time. ughh. i don't understand why you can't pay for my ticket for MY birthday present because, last time i remember you didnt get me a birthday gift. my birthday was EFFING CRAP! i got YELLED at and got told to CLEAN on MY BIRTHDAY. woooooo!!! that was such an awesome time. and you guys couldn't even get the one thing i've been wanting most for years. a freaking ice cream cake. that's ALL i have been asking for my birthday and every year i see failure. i don't get anything and then when i want something or i don't wanna pay for it "your always spending money on me". which everyone and their god damn mother knows is a fucken lie now. i would like to know what was the last thing you bought me. i would really like to know. oooh. i know what you would say. two boxes of waffle crisp which is worth $4.00 and that's expensive when you buy Alex and Franky shoes and cloths for a total over $400 and that's not expensive!!!!?? are you effing kidding me. whatever. i need out. i need a job. i need SOMEONE to hire me ASAP!

peace out dawg.
<3blair.

grr,

ughh. well i'm getting a bit annoyed but not really. i dont like it when people always have to pay for me. i feel like i'm just a free loaner and that i cat do anything for myself that why i don't like asking people for money or to pay for something. its just... idk... and insecurity i guess. but not really. i mean yeah you might be saying or doing it cuz your a good friend[[s]] but i don't know. ughh. i don't know. i feel like if people always pay for me i feel i have to repay them somehow no matter what. ill feel like a jerk that uses their friends.

i guess this is a sign saying i need a job asap. well guess what blair's doing tomorrow.

you know.
well i'm gonna go watch what they're talking about. peace out dawg.
<3blair.