what a night.

friday october sixteenth two thousand nine i seriously thought i was going to die multiple times with four other people. that must have been the most scariest, memorable, funniest, stupidest night of my life. i went to sera-rose duncans house cuz she asked me to come over, and i had to make brownies first so i did, and bounced on over there. she asked if i wanted a cigarette and i had one.. [[its totally true cynthia!lol]] so we were talking and she wanted to go to the football game and i was like ehh shurree. but i ended up convincing her other wise cuz i really didnt wanna go.. and plus i herd that biance[[rubens cousin]] and her boyfriend tyler were coming over. and last time i didnt get to hang out with them forever so i wanted to stay. so we did.. and sera wanted to paint my nails and i let her. and then she started to decorate them and we thought biance and tyler were here and they were. ruben had already bought some beer for them cuz me and sera arnt huge fans of beer. its not all that great. haha. so they have a beer and tyler and ruben start playing basketball in the back while the girls were talking about some stufff. but then they got tired and the girls got cold so we went to the garage, a few min. before we went inside, larry and denise had left and we all thought they were gonnna go have sex in the car somewhere, but we found out that davey went alonf so they went out to dinner. so then... me and sera were kinda feelin that we wanted panda express and biance wanted to by ruben cigarettes cuz she takes theirs when shes over so the girls went to go get food and cigarettes. we found out that panda express was closed so we go to mcadees. and sera as driving that was effing hilarious. and then we got to the liquor store so bianca could get some cigarettes and then we went home. so then.. after we ate our food. ruben and tyler realized that they sewat off the alchohol while playing basketball and they werent drunk and they ran outta beer. well sera wanted to drive but i was lie i could! and i have automatic windows! and tyler was like "do you have back windows that roll down?" and i was like yeah! and i gots a sunrooof! and he was all mkay! blairs drivin! so we go to thee other liquor store to get some beer and we were blastin music. sera was singing to the old asian man who didnt like her singing. and were on our way back to seras with the beer and were blasting music and we get to where musick school is and tyler has his ass outta the window. it was fucken hilarious. then ruben was standing on the seat his body out aand same with tyler and then sera got up and was hangin outta the sunroff. it was sooo effing hilarious. and i was all if theres no cops.. have fun. lmfao. and we get back and tyler was like mmmaaaannnn. yous a coold friend blair! man we gotta go somewhere else! haha.. then ruben decided that we should go to ghost town .. in fremont. where automall is.. yeah.. dont go.. ruben said a thirty minute walk.. fuckno! it was a fucken forty five to an hour walk to FINALLY GET TO THE EFFING BRIDGE. but there was like this little water area and we herd a flop and me and sera jumped. and then tyler threw a rock and that scared the holy fucken shits outta us!!! and then we got the flashlight and shined it in the water we saw eyes. A FUCKEN ALLIGATOR WAS IN THAT FUCKEN WATER LESS THAN FIFTEEN FEET AWAY FROM US!!!!!! oh and BTDUB!! we were walking on an active railroad track so trains could come and go as they please. so me and sera bolted outta there like the speed of light. and they were yelling at us to come back. and we were like fuck no! so tyler tryed to convince us and we were like fuck you. aso they ended up still going.. oooh...

soo.. let me tell you about the bridge. the brided is just the train tracks across the water and if theresa train.. you better be booken across.. the way you wanna go or the way you came unless your dead.. and oh dont forget if you go back the way you came theres an alligator.
back to the storyy.

soo... we turned around to see what they were doing and sera was like is that a train and i ws like no thats their flashlight and then she turned around again and was like no! thats a train and then we herd the three yelling train. and we fucken jumped offf that shit like the speed of light and got into the grass thats was 3/4 of out height and took two steps in the grasss so we were far away from the train and me and sera was holdgin each other with the deeath gripp. and the train was fucken LONG! so then we were shurre not to touch the metal cuz it would melt our shoes and we start walking fast back to the street. then we were freaking out cuz we didnt hear or see thee others.. but then we herd them screaming. i herd one of them say sera and i kinda herd biance but then there was one other person acting like they were in pain.. and sera broke down.she thought something bad happend to them and as crying i tryed to get her to think of happy thoughts. like weed cigarettes blair bianca sera disneyland and she said oxygen bar and we decided an oxygen bar would be awesome right then and there. and we kept walking but thenn we turned around and through some plants we saw the flashlight and knew they were goood and we relaxed. so thennn we had to peee so we sat oon the railing and tried to go pee.. the railing was soooo effing cold that i didnt have to pee and so i got back up and waited fr sera to be done adn we started walking i stippped down to my skirt that was underneath and we were wlkaing.. then a fe min later i really had to pee sat down on the railing and finally went pee and then we finally got to the street and there was sooo much fog it was redonculous!!!! but it was sooo fucken awesome nice photo area. and then we got to my car turned the seat warmers on and went to go find thee others. and they were safe and sound.. found out when the train was coming they were half way across the bridge.. omfg.. what are we gonna do.. but yeah

i know its long.. but heyy..
thats how i almost died like a kagillion times.
and you dont how many times we were tripping on rocks... and slipping on mudd and the rocks. redonculous! but all in alll i wont forget this and word of advice stay away from railroad tracks and the ghost town not worth it.. seriously.
peace dawg
<3blair!

really mom? really??

wow ohkay. well i understand that i'm eighteen and you don't have to do anything for me but WTF?? like, you won't buy me anything new. like clothes, shoes, phone, and anything else i need and now you want me to pay for my ticket to Disneyland??? with my birthday money?? like i'm gonna have the same clothes for like over a year now. and i barely have clothes to begin with. i only have like two pair of pants. and it's gonna be winter soon [[hopefully]] and i'll have no pants whats so ever. i'll be wearing skirts and shorts. woohoo. ughh.. i really hate how she keeps putting this shit on me like.. what the hell man. i have no job i've been looking and she doesn't even believe me. like i'm sorry i've been tired lately it's prolly cuz i'm getting sick and your yelling at me cuz i haven't been searching for any jobs. like are you serious. i have to cook clean and do everyones shit because i don't have a job and i'm trying to apply for jobs and being your god damn maids all at the same time. ughh. i don't understand why you can't pay for my ticket for MY birthday present because, last time i remember you didnt get me a birthday gift. my birthday was EFFING CRAP! i got YELLED at and got told to CLEAN on MY BIRTHDAY. woooooo!!! that was such an awesome time. and you guys couldn't even get the one thing i've been wanting most for years. a freaking ice cream cake. that's ALL i have been asking for my birthday and every year i see failure. i don't get anything and then when i want something or i don't wanna pay for it "your always spending money on me". which everyone and their god damn mother knows is a fucken lie now. i would like to know what was the last thing you bought me. i would really like to know. oooh. i know what you would say. two boxes of waffle crisp which is worth $4.00 and that's expensive when you buy Alex and Franky shoes and cloths for a total over $400 and that's not expensive!!!!?? are you effing kidding me. whatever. i need out. i need a job. i need SOMEONE to hire me ASAP!

peace out dawg.
<3blair.

grr,

ughh. well i'm getting a bit annoyed but not really. i dont like it when people always have to pay for me. i feel like i'm just a free loaner and that i cat do anything for myself that why i don't like asking people for money or to pay for something. its just... idk... and insecurity i guess. but not really. i mean yeah you might be saying or doing it cuz your a good friend[[s]] but i don't know. ughh. i don't know. i feel like if people always pay for me i feel i have to repay them somehow no matter what. ill feel like a jerk that uses their friends.

i guess this is a sign saying i need a job asap. well guess what blair's doing tomorrow.

you know.
well i'm gonna go watch what they're talking about. peace out dawg.
<3blair.

todayy.

well. i'm at cynthia's house right now chillen like a villain. cuz im cool like that.
but.. i'm only gonna be here till around three, three thirty cuz i'm going to my sister's house
to see what's going on with thee bearded dragons and what not cuz i'm gonna be getting one for free! im super excited it's like crazysauce! :D and yeah. but i'll be back on sunday so then we
get to chill that week so it's all gravey to the max!! hahaha. hmm. what else should i write about.
well i need a job so i can get money to buy my own laptop, and photoshop, and a new camera, and new clothes and shoes. because my mother won't buy them for me cuz i'm eightteen and she doesn't need to buy stuff for me and plus i'm not going to school. and she has bought more sutff for then she has the boys. when in reality it's probably around the same now cuz they are in baseball and they get new bats, cleats, helmets, gloves and all that shit. so now its probably ranged to about the same now. but whatever i don't wanna stress about stupid shit anymore cuz yeah. lol. so yeah.. hmm. idk what to write about cynthia said she was gonna be in there for about five minutes but i think it's been about ten. lmao. im not trippen. hahaha. i's still in my peeejays. lmao. but the shower stopped so she'll be out in about a few minutes. so i'm gonna bounce. peace out dawgs.
<3blair.

cynthia velasquez-lund

well i felt bad that she wasnt in my newest blog. so im dedicating this to her.
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well i think that pretty much sums it up. but if not.. your fault for not getting it! hahaha.. well yeah weve been bffffs forever with ups and downs and were still friends suckahs! you wish your friendship was as cool as ours!! muthafuckas!!! hahahaha.. jaykay.. but seriously you are jealous of our friendship. hahaha. cynthia velasquez-lund this is your blog. be loved!! peace out dawgs!
<3blair.

well.

well jesus. what the fuck.
hahaha.. jaykay.. i thought that would be funny.
well. i've been noticing that i haven't been hanging with certain friends.
like numero uno.
christopher mcelvogue however you spell his last name. lmao.
jesus christ. like i cant truly remember the last time i hung out with him.
idk if it was the movies or cynthia's birthday party.. like i truly cant.
now thats a fucken long time. maybe he doesn't wanna be my friend anymore. D:
lol. maybe ill play that card so he will. lmfao. another person i haven't hung out with
in awhile is tiffany spencer. oh man.. i miss that girl completely its been like a whole two months same with sarah puttman! jesus i still have their gifts! hahahahaha.. but man one of these days
im just gonna go to their houses and walk in like i own the place and chill with them..
and im talking about all three.. hahaha.. OH YEAH!! i havent hung out with chris since the movies!!!!!!! cuz i remember talking to his grandpa about my car and how all of us are going on a road trip to tahoe in december cuz i dont need chains. :d i ferrgot waht movie though. *thinks* yeah cant remember. bahahaha. wow i seriously have some effing memory problems. im gonna get altimers. ooooh jesus. im scared! hahaha. hmm. i was.... SEE here it goes again!!! i can't even think what i was gonna say next! omg! i'm most definitley scarred! hahaha. whatever.. haha.. i'll have my friends there for support hopefully. :D peace out dawgs. i''ll write some more stuff laterr.
<3blair

FUCK my FUCKING LIFE!!!!!!!

well. FML! like im not even kidding. im getting treated like an unwanted fucking kid, no.. not even a kid. a god DAMN [[thats right i said it]] GOD DAMN dog!!! probably not even that. probably like dirt. my brothers have gotten new pants, shirts, shoes, tanks, swim trunks, and shorts, and alex got a new cell phone. like really?!?! you dont think i dont need anything?!?! if i get a fucking job what the fuck am i going to wear basketball shorts?? jean shorts? a skirt?? or green or brown pants?!?!? yeah right!! if i get a job at raleys, their dress code is black pants and balck shoes, which i dont fucking have!!! yes i do understand that im eightteen but that doesnt mean you have to treat me like effing crap. and you really need to stop saying the whole "your not in school blah blah blah bullshit!!!" its soo fucking old and its been like two days!!!!! yes i do understand that im not in school but i WILL BE in effing spring!!!!! ughh. i really cant stand it anymore. and then i get elled at for being on the computer after making alexander fucking birthday cakes and fucking cookie crap for him. like really? i could have jsut sat in my room and do nothing but i got up and did that for you, and then you yell at me for being on the computer. and i AM trying to find a job its not fucking easy as you think. and i swear to god if you even say that your dad got a job. NO technically he did but papa GAVE it to him. he didnt fucken earn it. hes jsut going to the interview to be fair to all the other fucking people! ughh. really i fucken hate my life. i really need to find a fucking job and get the fuck out of my house because no one knows how to be fucking nice and all that shit. *sigh* whatever im trying not to stress out so yeah.

OHH and plus alex gets to get takin out for dinner.
me?? no one took me out for dinner, i got yelled at all day, and no one got me the one thing i wanted. i wanted an ice cream cake ive never had one and ive been wanting one forever. like since i was in the womb status.. well maybe not that long but you know what i mean. well.. im gonna go find something to eat. peace out.
<3blair