grr,

ughh. well i'm getting a bit annoyed but not really. i dont like it when people always have to pay for me. i feel like i'm just a free loaner and that i cat do anything for myself that why i don't like asking people for money or to pay for something. its just... idk... and insecurity i guess. but not really. i mean yeah you might be saying or doing it cuz your a good friend[[s]] but i don't know. ughh. i don't know. i feel like if people always pay for me i feel i have to repay them somehow no matter what. ill feel like a jerk that uses their friends.

i guess this is a sign saying i need a job asap. well guess what blair's doing tomorrow.

you know.
well i'm gonna go watch what they're talking about. peace out dawg.
<3blair.

todayy.

well. i'm at cynthia's house right now chillen like a villain. cuz im cool like that.
but.. i'm only gonna be here till around three, three thirty cuz i'm going to my sister's house
to see what's going on with thee bearded dragons and what not cuz i'm gonna be getting one for free! im super excited it's like crazysauce! :D and yeah. but i'll be back on sunday so then we
get to chill that week so it's all gravey to the max!! hahaha. hmm. what else should i write about.
well i need a job so i can get money to buy my own laptop, and photoshop, and a new camera, and new clothes and shoes. because my mother won't buy them for me cuz i'm eightteen and she doesn't need to buy stuff for me and plus i'm not going to school. and she has bought more sutff for then she has the boys. when in reality it's probably around the same now cuz they are in baseball and they get new bats, cleats, helmets, gloves and all that shit. so now its probably ranged to about the same now. but whatever i don't wanna stress about stupid shit anymore cuz yeah. lol. so yeah.. hmm. idk what to write about cynthia said she was gonna be in there for about five minutes but i think it's been about ten. lmao. im not trippen. hahaha. i's still in my peeejays. lmao. but the shower stopped so she'll be out in about a few minutes. so i'm gonna bounce. peace out dawgs.
<3blair.

cynthia velasquez-lund

well i felt bad that she wasnt in my newest blog. so im dedicating this to her.
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well i think that pretty much sums it up. but if not.. your fault for not getting it! hahaha.. well yeah weve been bffffs forever with ups and downs and were still friends suckahs! you wish your friendship was as cool as ours!! muthafuckas!!! hahahaha.. jaykay.. but seriously you are jealous of our friendship. hahaha. cynthia velasquez-lund this is your blog. be loved!! peace out dawgs!
<3blair.

well.

well jesus. what the fuck.
hahaha.. jaykay.. i thought that would be funny.
well. i've been noticing that i haven't been hanging with certain friends.
like numero uno.
christopher mcelvogue however you spell his last name. lmao.
jesus christ. like i cant truly remember the last time i hung out with him.
idk if it was the movies or cynthia's birthday party.. like i truly cant.
now thats a fucken long time. maybe he doesn't wanna be my friend anymore. D:
lol. maybe ill play that card so he will. lmfao. another person i haven't hung out with
in awhile is tiffany spencer. oh man.. i miss that girl completely its been like a whole two months same with sarah puttman! jesus i still have their gifts! hahahahaha.. but man one of these days
im just gonna go to their houses and walk in like i own the place and chill with them..
and im talking about all three.. hahaha.. OH YEAH!! i havent hung out with chris since the movies!!!!!!! cuz i remember talking to his grandpa about my car and how all of us are going on a road trip to tahoe in december cuz i dont need chains. :d i ferrgot waht movie though. *thinks* yeah cant remember. bahahaha. wow i seriously have some effing memory problems. im gonna get altimers. ooooh jesus. im scared! hahaha. hmm. i was.... SEE here it goes again!!! i can't even think what i was gonna say next! omg! i'm most definitley scarred! hahaha. whatever.. haha.. i'll have my friends there for support hopefully. :D peace out dawgs. i''ll write some more stuff laterr.
<3blair

FUCK my FUCKING LIFE!!!!!!!

well. FML! like im not even kidding. im getting treated like an unwanted fucking kid, no.. not even a kid. a god DAMN [[thats right i said it]] GOD DAMN dog!!! probably not even that. probably like dirt. my brothers have gotten new pants, shirts, shoes, tanks, swim trunks, and shorts, and alex got a new cell phone. like really?!?! you dont think i dont need anything?!?! if i get a fucking job what the fuck am i going to wear basketball shorts?? jean shorts? a skirt?? or green or brown pants?!?!? yeah right!! if i get a job at raleys, their dress code is black pants and balck shoes, which i dont fucking have!!! yes i do understand that im eightteen but that doesnt mean you have to treat me like effing crap. and you really need to stop saying the whole "your not in school blah blah blah bullshit!!!" its soo fucking old and its been like two days!!!!! yes i do understand that im not in school but i WILL BE in effing spring!!!!! ughh. i really cant stand it anymore. and then i get elled at for being on the computer after making alexander fucking birthday cakes and fucking cookie crap for him. like really? i could have jsut sat in my room and do nothing but i got up and did that for you, and then you yell at me for being on the computer. and i AM trying to find a job its not fucking easy as you think. and i swear to god if you even say that your dad got a job. NO technically he did but papa GAVE it to him. he didnt fucken earn it. hes jsut going to the interview to be fair to all the other fucking people! ughh. really i fucken hate my life. i really need to find a fucking job and get the fuck out of my house because no one knows how to be fucking nice and all that shit. *sigh* whatever im trying not to stress out so yeah.

OHH and plus alex gets to get takin out for dinner.
me?? no one took me out for dinner, i got yelled at all day, and no one got me the one thing i wanted. i wanted an ice cream cake ive never had one and ive been wanting one forever. like since i was in the womb status.. well maybe not that long but you know what i mean. well.. im gonna go find something to eat. peace out.
<3blair

ughh!

soo.. i en this computer. is sukks major ass. i cant fix my twitter, i cant get into or facebook. its en lame! ughh. so yeah.

we just arrived in stockton today. and we just ate some yummy food. and all that junk. we went swimming and this is the second day my mom has been swimming!! :D im soooo excited! :D so me, tiffany, franky, and my mom has had ooober fun! oregon was gorgeous and awesome except the altitude!! ugh. me and tiffany have gotten scratches that we cant explain on how we got them! en crazy ass dude! hahahaha. mmm. what else. our room! omfg! our room is huge. we technically have three different rooms. a living room and two bedrooms. and we have a kitchen. with a full size fridge and a stove and a dishwasher! dude! its awesome. there has been some cute guys! likke on the way driving too oregon! :D mmmm....mmmmmm.. good! hahaha.. and swimming at the hotel in oregon. :D and here in stockton! hahahaha..

hmm.. idk what else to say. but i ahte this en computer i hope it chokes on a dick and dies!!!! its 1998! WHAT THE ! ughh.
welll ttyl. :D
<3blair.

my hair! D:

omfg. well pretty much my whole entire life is ruined. im not even kidding.. some moutha fucken asion bitch had to go on and chop my fucken hair off. yeah i know its hair.. but i dont like short hair never have never will. and i told that fucken bitch that and what does she do.. she cuts the fucken damn thinng off.. for how much fucken hair she cut off.. i could have donated to fucken cancer patiants!!! not even kidding.. i sware my hair bettr grow fast or that bitch is dead.. im ssoooooo ready to go down there and kick her ass! omfg. its prom on sat and i cant do anything to my hair besides straighten it.. i can put half up half down!!!! omfg.. im gonna cry again. well. FML!!!
to the fucken max.. I AM NEVER GETTING A HAIR CUT EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER AGAIN!!!!! IN MY WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! UGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!